Im over at Richards house right now. I adore spending time with him.
We’re cute. But we’re like fire and gasoline.
I love him. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME???
I went to lunch with Richard today. It was nice. We just have such a chemistry.
You want me when you know I’m doing better without you. Now that you’ve got me back in my feelings, you just shove me aside again.
So this weekend happened. I won’t go into full detail but basically Richard and I hung out and I slept over on Saturday night. Obviously I still love him or have feelings for him because I wouldn’t have done that if I didn’t. But I’m pissed now because I want to talk about this weekend and it seems like he doesn’t. He kept telling me that he didn’t want to break up with me, he still loves me, he only broke up with me for my own good. He misses me and blah blah blah. We spent the whole day yesterday curled up on the couch watching movies and it felt so right. But I can’t let that make the bad things about us go away. The fighting, the drinking, the jealousy. I don’t know what to do now and now he won’t talk to me because I tried to get him to talk about it. Ughh even if we do get back together I just need to make sure things will be different.
You guys. I’m so stupid. I’m still so in love with Richard and I want to fucking stop it. I’m feeling rejected again and I hate that. Damn it.
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